want what?

the only thing i feel like doing these days is lie on my sofa and watch My Girl! gasp! not exactly boredom.. just.. so mindless and easy and entertaining just watching there. it always makes me laugh. i'm halfway through the vcds already! and thats happy but also sad, cos like as you approach the end of a good book- there is a collective sigh- WHY NO MORE?. sulk.

so i am at the half-sigh. ohh driving is kinda fun. yesterday i had a duper wuper instructor who let me drive to clementi. past my house estate and sunset way where i went to kow's house to bai nian just the day before =) and i felt so accomplished cos its like im actually driving around singapore now! not some stupid circuit wasting patrol and time. 'turn right!' turn left. turn right! check blindspot. brake early! turn right! u turn! ya la i know alreayd right right tright. trite.

today i sat in the car and imagined i was driving a bmw, and seated on my left was my father's friend- quite an unfortunate guest who keeps talking, but i still nod smile and tolerate him and his unceasing direction because its okay im in my bmw. i like the word unceasing but i dunno why. hmmmmmm i want to go overseas. i really really want to.

i just realised today as i was on 188 toward bukit batok that i love surprises. especially successful and heartfelt ones. haha. like wohwoh girls' surprise at my house last yr. even though it wasnt that much of a success cos their clumsy plik plak of their flip flops down the stairs gave them away, it was quite funny. i was smiling to myself on the bus (thats why i dont know road names i think. for real. my mind latches onto some memory of something and relives the whole thing in vivid detail. i still remember what i felt and said when i opened the mystery parcel at the door- mum! you open! what if inside there's a cockroach! eer. youopen..

i want to see snow and make a snowman.
i want to go visit rays of peace orphanage, bangalore, india.
i want to go see the children in liulu village, luoping, china.
i want to do a painting on canvas that i can hang up.
i want to build my own house.
i want to fly to europe, australia, dubai.
i want to learn japanese.
i want to read alice in wonderland.
"i want more than this provincial life!" - belle, beauty & the beast.

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latest news: running too much gives you buckled bones and long-short legs. how gratifyingly justifying. !