update of a life

the throne! moniza n shuying n i were working on. i love it. n royston who went to visit.

yiting n i :)

alexius and i being spastic like our tree, hahah. he's off in the US now. no wait, he's on the wretched plane

absolutely adorable christabelle and edlyn, my youngest cousins

feels like a weight has been lifted off
when the curtain falls there is a sudden clarity
the frozen postures of the dancers thaw, their icy stillness dissolves
and life is breathed into them again,
as natural light falls through the crack in the ceiling

been thinking about comprehension:
i just need to know things, to understand them,
to pick objects up and handle them, to fidget and figure their mechanisms
what makes that sound? what does it feel like?
like i used to when i was a child-
knocking my mother's nailpolish lacquer on the ground
until it cracked and its colour spilt open
until my parents had to keep every ornament on the shelves so i would not
knock all of them over in my effort to fathom them.
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here is where i stop being cryptic:
been receiving many complaints.
hahaha.
school has started, and i like my studio well and good so far. all very nice people
ive yet to meet my french tutor, i wonder about his accent, and how to pronounce his surname
wonder how he looks like n if he's the type of tutor we'll all love on first impression
cos first impressions count
and i realise i comfort eat quite a lot. like when im really sian or tired i'd walk over to
the happy machine and either get 1. chilli tapioca chips 2. chocolate 3. ribena

module clash is bugging me abit, but God said "do not worry about tomorrow, for today has enough trouble of its own" amen to that. you have no idea. so... if at worst i only have 4 modules to take, so be it. so be it. if he brings me to it, he will bring me through it- usp requirements, a good semester, doing well in the modules, completing whatever is required of me excellently

"excellent". a new favourite word. on top of "yeah, correct" which gerry tells me is my habitual phrase. when i was in the bus today, there was an aki student talking about life in NUS to two exchange students. i don't know which year he's in, im guessing year 3. he said,
" i don't like the NUS education system because it doesn't allow you to be creative. Too many deadlines, so rushed."
but i was secretly disagreeing vehemently, because isn't creativity the creation of solutions to problems? And problems all innately have a 'deadline' because of their need to be resolved- pressure drives creativity, and the challenge of creativity does not occur in a timeless vacuum. In fact, any solution which is too delayed ceases to be appropriate or effective, and ceases to be a solution. Anyone can solve problems given infinite time, but it is within fixed time boundaries that creativity and ingenious solutions are necessitated. Without the timeline, what is creativity? there is no such thing. God made the world in 6 days. hahaha. and the 7th day for rest, which i shall succumb to now. thank You thank You.