crisismas ):

christmas is so stressful.
endless gifts to buy cards to ponder crap to munch to write to bargain to shop for to arrange
and that makes me feel stupid.
cos it all ends in one day
the day on which Jesus probably wasn't even actually BORN on,
its just symbolic.
and im not focusing on him enough!

and orientation is just eating up the christmas spirit. my school's all green.
and im in there 10 hours a day. that means
half of christmas is lost
the passion
the red
raw fun.

and i still try n understand why this isnt what it should be.