stutterings of the feeble

notes to self
1. quit moping around.
2. lose that fever and flu.
3. get thinking about your design.
4. do Qt.
5. plan your time well.
6. take a rest and abandon those plans.
7. since im emotionally unexpressive, might as well be emotionally uninvolved. haha. if only.
8. take funny and quizzical quizzes like www.handwritingwizard.com 's handwriting analysis test which illuminates your soul. ...nah. but it is a good laugh.


i'm aching all over! okay... . didnt mean to break rule number one. captain's ball was quite fun la, our team was easy going and could talk to everyone comfortably. if only people didnt start deserting halfway... ya anyhow, today i managed to skip 4 hour design studio class because i was feeling horrible. fever, blocked nose sore throat muscle aches the whole works. haha. which was a blessing in disguise i guess. got to sleep in the afternoon for three hours before getting started on some work. this work cycle doesnt ever end you know! even the holidays get cluttered up with alot of :to do's:. i already have a mental list of what stuff i wanna do in the 3 month break. its like a taste of heaven! or the seventh day - REST.


oh ya. one day i was in the shower it suddenly dawned on me (think cheesy spotlight) that stutterglue has a reason, despite its seeming madness. or Dadaism. i used to think there was a box around me, like a glass ceiling or some form of limitation. that was up til 2 years ago, and the box was my fear of speaking publicly hahaha. sounds stupid now, but true. whenever we needed to do a presentation i'd just get a mental block and words came slow. that's sort of like stuttering right? the inability to articulate. but still there were a lot of thoughts, and consequently alot of words, which were then channeled into the medium of writing in belated expression. so i guess this blog is a sort of glue which holds all the sealed-up and swallowed, stifled and smothered- stutters together in a way which allows them to be understood.


now i think im out of the box, i dont know how, but i think it's something to do with a new realisation of who God is and who i am in him. something to do with dpf and my time in india, my mission trip in china, memories of fbic, and a general growing up.


right. enough said.

p.s. to sini, lewina, xuezhen and all fellow aki friends, don't let it kill you. live! rooting for you.

only one question remains,

what are you thinking?