bangkok and the blues

i wonder why you sink on your knees

and mope

when it isnt even over

you havent even tried.

i wonder why you box up

your hidden thoughts

lace up your words

so they dont say anything

so i wouldnt know unless i saw.

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back from bangkok. (: UN building, field projects, shopping, 6-course meals, tomyam soups, hotels, busrides, Kitti (: our lovely daddyish tourguide, BadBoys, level 8, bridge, night markets..

it was good fun, though in a sense im glad to be back.

away from the competition of it all

back though, with a fever n flu

37.8 at the doc's, now im not so sure. cant find my thermometer- read: too lazy to dig it up

it seems that to find anything i own, i have to DIG it up. like house-hunt. there's so much detail.

papers stuffed in boxes, oh papers are the worst. i hate sorting them out.

and i dont like ornaments either, dont know what to do with them. there's no space for me to display them, and since im a grateful sentimental sort ;) i dont want to throw it away..

it just becomes Detail.

-do u know if u blow ur nose too hard the mucus gets into yr ears and they get blocked?-

i'm rambling. arent i. took real nice photos in bangkok. i should like going on a photography trip.

id love to travel.

nothing really happens these days. especially now im sick, i vegetate/ spent whole day sitting around

not doing much, not thinking at all.

thinking is difficult.

ooh im not cut out for acting. uncle blue sprang on me with a surprise that i was to act the part of Holy Spirit in his sermon skit. n that i was leading pre-service prayer.

to be sick, just back from bangkok the night before.. some kinda tough.

ah well, its over. and well. Thank God.

uncle blue told me that he's training me to become his co-cell leader. my first response was: huh? then i'll be leading two cells.

he didnt seem too happy with my unenthusiastic response. but its just that im very cautious of committing myself.

i dont want to sign up for something i wont put in full effort for, and end up not doing well in. at least that's what i think i'm doing. it may just be that im lazy, or feel im not up to the job, or am refusing to believe im older than them. hahaha. this entry is long enough.

holy holy are you lord, the whole earth is filled with your glory!