promise me, Lord.

cut out all the religious jargon, the meaningless technicalities, the conflicting human rituals and trivial complexities.
i can't bother with those now,
that i've seen You.

promise me that at no point in my life
will i separate from you
and rebel in my own way

will i become proud
and stubborn and stiff-necked and refuse instruction
and detest discipline.

for everything i am
is nothing apart from You.

bless me, not according to my worldly plans- my vision has been wrong all this while
bless me even if it means walking on my knees before You
may all my purposes fail if they are not of You
let all my dreams fall to the ground if You don't approve.

take the wheel. i have tried to drive
i have collided, i have nothing left.

let me celebrate only as You celebrate.
let my sadness be only your bearable burdens
let my relief only come from You.
i exist only in You-in Your purposes, plans and decisions.

You are in heaven, and i am on earth.
so let my words be few.
God im in love with You.
i surrender it all, for everything more, or less.

For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. Matthew16:25

i will never settle for anything less.
this is a 'never' God will keep for me.