surrender, serve, save.

i normally fill in the title above after i've written all i wanted in this white space. i think its because right now i have no idea what kind of words will fall into this box. hmm.
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for some specifics, since this space is often filled with wooly off the head musings.. yesterday these 3 entrepreneurs came over to my school to talk to us, supposedly, about globalisation. goobshop. but they were really amusing, if not tiring after a while. they told us to quit school cos it sucks our creativity, not to bother about grades cos the whole world doesn't care about it, says that the singapore education system is 'too damn conservative' and too preoccupied with producing average goods to come up with anything brilliantly GREAT- too insistent on powerpoint. they asked us to break the rules- choose which ones to break. that in business you have to satisfy a Need, not a Greed (aka what you want to do, what u dream about and think is fun)
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the metrosexualish one also told us acs has all the entrepreneurs- 60% of his pri school classmates are in business. whereas only 2 of his dweeby RI classmates have dared to tread the non-financial/professional/boring sectors. dont think PAP will like him much, even though he's wearing white.
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we had inter-class pe also. mixed soccer- and the only people from 1b who played were hannah, me, belle matt and hongwee. the rest were exports. ahaha. so much for class spirit. 'ah-ah-ah'. whatever does that mean? see why i dont like talking about specifics? its meaningless! faceless names in senseless crowds and nameless noise. i dont really care about pe, i dont really care about the three entrepreneurs, (i failed math and i dont think quitting school is a valid solution thankyouverymuch)
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i'm going to talk about God. who matters to me. who's non-matter to me as well- in all kinds of states and forms and circumstances, he pervades. and i am thankful. breaktimes with him have been delightful, it sets my focus in this world where i am only alien. which is why i still smile despite my grades- because im not defined by them. which is why i'll still be confident even if im friendless, conversationless.. it took me a long time to get here. and im not going to lose my way again.
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breathe in the sunlight, coax away the rain because its the day- the day- i'm not sure, i must be joyful. he told me nothing matters but Him, and i- i agree!