gooey yummies

its been so long since i've been here, and ironically im here when its the busiest for me. [no, stop it felicia! -resist the urge to number and rethink the number of assignments i have on hand..] somehow i always feel its almost sinful to be typing here, because time is a precious commodity. every second i spend online is a second detracted from reading time, essay writing time, sleep time, tv time, quiet time time, thought time.. yah there's so much thinking to do it freaks me out. like design concepts and everything, very intriguing, and like a vacuum cleaner cos it sucks me in and before i know it its gasp! 2am or something.
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in a kinda frazzled and irritated mood this evening.. now im fine i guess. just needed time to be alone and. i dunno. i need my 'shrine' as my tutor calls it. i need alot of personal space. which i barely get drops of most of these days. hmm. still, school has never been this enjoyable for me. i do feel i was meant to be here at such a time doing such things. -beam of content- thursday's worship prac.. feel like changing the first song but wonder if its too late. ayae.
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oh! yesterday night i finally met up with erica and adele, after shamefully rejecting their offers for 3 consecutive times i think. cos of work mah. we went to bakerzin and tried their main courses, like the pasta! is decent n affordable.. i ordered the beef meatball one, which was so-so. BUT i liked erica's mushroom linguine!! its heavenly. i have a thing for mushrooms. people call it a 'soft spot'. funny eh? why not a 'chewy spot' or a 'red spot' why is it a SPOT.? for goodness sake. there is no spot. just a thought. hahahaha. THEN we did the most amazing thing [my proud recommendation]- tripped down to coffee club express and had their muddy mudpie. it's the most satisfying thing you'll ever crave, seriously, no kid. coffee and chocolate ice cream on a chewy biscuit base, that melts in your mouth and is covered with thick laps of oreo crumbs and chocolate fudge. haha. the three of us shared it. oohlala.
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tempted now? hee hee. i can be their mascot. [oh yah why are mascots animals?] i change my mind. i'll be their delegate. more pompous.hmpf! haha. today i catched up with lydia for a while after usp class.. at the arts canteen and we just talked about what dr don told us during class, that all our choices and preferences are the result of repeatedly sending neuro-electric signals down a specific path. like chocolate = :D! because, over and over i choose to eat chocolate, over say, marshmellows or sth [input] i get that warm feel good feeling [output] and my brain cells note these repeated neurosignal path! like the way rainwater gradually carves a river down a mountain. interesting huh? so if i ever wanna change my preferences and 'program' myself to love say, tomatoes (urgh! :P) i just need to condition myself by practising it! until my tomato-repulsion factor is overpowered by the opposite connection : tomato-gulper path.
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oh and, you ARE unique. there are 100 000 million synapses in yr brain, so the permutations between them are infinite, and only YOU have your mind, shaped by choice and experience and all those other factors that influence you. finally you can believe the trite gooey phrase you are special.